Nick Finnegan Counciling Center - The White I Didn't Paint.

I meant for To Soar to be almost entirely white.

That was the plan from the first sketch. Torn paper glued in relief across an eight by eight foot sheet, then washed in whites so close to one another you would have to stand still to see where one ended and the next began. Sandhill cranes lifting out of a wetland, washed in sunlight, the birds and the water made of the same pale value. I wanted the relief to carry the piece, the tear lines and the ridges where one sheet lifts off another, and the quiet surface for a small intimate space.

What I had imagined depended on someone standing in front of the work, with light moving across a raised edge as they shifted their weight. The camera would never see that.

So I brought color in to find the edges.

Chartreuse and moss pooled into the low places of the paper and stopped at the tear lines. Teal settled under the lily pads. Lilac and violet came down in drips, and each drip bent and caught on the ridges it crossed on the way down. Thin lines of cobalt and indigo pastel follow the tops of the folds. Coral went into the lilies and red went into the crowns.

The red is accurate. A sandhill crane's crown is bare skin, and it flushes brighter when the bird is excited or alarmed. The rest of the bird is gray, and many sandhills spend part of the year stained the color of rust because they preen iron-rich mud into their feathers. They color themselves with the wetland they live in.

I had pictured a white bird on a white ground, clean and separate from its marsh. The real bird carries its marsh on its body. If you get close to the cranes in the foreground, you'll find faint rust on their wings, the same iron the birds pick up from the mud.

The cranes in the center of To Soar are still mostly white, but now they rise out of green water, and the white reads because of the color around it.

The lilies follow the same logic. A water lily roots in anaerobic muck, mud with almost no oxygen in it, and opens on the surface every morning. The flower needs the dark water under the pad to have something to rise out of.

I started adding color because of the camera. I kept adding it because the piece needed its water.

Why I Don't Compost

I used to believe the birds were doing the planting for me. Mostly they aren't. A cardinal cracks the seed, a goldfinch grinds it in its gizzard, and either way it becomes heat. A cardinal cracks the seed, a goldfinch grinds it in its gizzard, and either way the energy becomes heat. The nitrogen comes back down in the droppings, giving back to the soil that grew the seed. — Beautiful

The plant makes far more seed than the ground can hold, and the birds are sloppy about taking it. A sparrow tugging at a cone knocks seed into the leaf litter. A finch pulls a head apart and loses half of it to the wind. What falls comes up later, a little farther from where it started.

The stems are doing their own work. Small native bees lay eggs in hollow and pithy stalks, and beetle and moth larvae spend the winter inside them. Nearly all songbirds, even most of the seed eaters, raise their chicks on insects. If I cut the stems now, I'd be taking away next spring's nestling food along with So I leave the spent growth standing through winter, even as new flowers open around it. In late winter I cut the oldest gray stems to knee height and leave the stubs for the bees. The leaves stay where they fell. Whatever the birds and insects don't use composts where it falls.

So I leave the spent growth standing through winter, even as new flowers open around it. In late winter I cut the oldest gray stems to knee height and leave the stubs for the bees. The leaves stay where they fell. Whatever the birds and insects don't use composts where it falls.

Dragonfly

vertical pupil

me

To Soar - Nick Finnegan Counseling Center piece, the collage is finished.

The drawing is finished. The tearing and gluing is finished. Eight feet by eight feet of paper, torn and layered into relief, is hanging on the studio wall — cranes lifting out of a wetland, water lilies, the suggestion of grasses and butterflies threading through all of lif’s messiness.

What remains is the part that scares me most: color. I say that not because I love this phase more than the others — I love every phase — but because fear and love have a weird relationship.

I do not start by mixing paint. I start by looking.

For days now I have been walking through my own life cataloguing proportion — not “what color,” but how much of it, and next to what. How much white beside how much gray. What a tint of gold owes to the sage beside it. Color is never one thing. It is a relationship, the same way a wetland is a relationship: heron and reed and light and silt, none of it legible alone. You cannot ask what a marsh “means” without asking what touches what. Color works the same way. A white is not a color until you tell me what it’s standing next to, what light shines down on it.

This is the practice I call seeing in systems, applied now to a palette instead of an ecosystem. Nothing exists alone. Everything is calibrated against what touches it.

So the search has been for whites — not one white, a whole kinship of them. Bone. Ash. Chalk. The pale underside of a wing. I keep returning to these because I want the piece to hold its intensity in texture rather than saturation: quiet enough that a viewer has to lean in to find the relationship, the way you have to get close to a marsh Abd close your eyes to hear what’s actually happening in it.

I think of the piece in three layers, each one a different organ of the same body. The drawing was the nervous system — the first signal, the line that tells the rest of the piece where to go. The torn paper is the bones — structure, weight, the thing that holds a shape upright in space. Color is the skin. Not decoration. The surface where the organism actually meets the world, where light lands and is read.

None of these layers works without the others. That is the whole point, and it is also be the hardest thing to remember tomorrow when I’m standing in front of a wall of white paper deciding where to place the first true color: the skin will not replace the skeleton. It will reveal it.

The color post will come later, once I’ve actually made the decisions I’m circling here. For now, I am still in the research — still walking around gathering whites, still asking what these torn, dimensional cranes want to become once light starts landing differently on every ridge and shadow the tearing created. Terrifying. Exciting.

Watercolor inks I will mix from.

i rise

monday • jul 10, 2023 • 5:00 pm

What the Rain Sounds Like Now

Rain on a roof is a specific sound — a few hundred small percussive events a second, no two exactly alike, because no two drops fall from the same height at the same angle onto the same surface. My studio has a metal roof. I have loved that sound my whole life. I grew up in the desert of West Texas, where rain is a rumor most of the year, and you learn to read it coming before you see it, if you see it: the smell first — petrichor, which is really geosmin, a compound made by soil bacteria and released into the air the moment a raindrop hits ground dry enough to have been waiting for it — rolling across miles of caliche ahead of the storm itself, then the thunder, then the excitement of it, then the run outside. Bare feet on hot concrete, then wet grass, then the first fat drops. The air cools — finally. My kids had it too. That specific joy has a name in every generation of my family before this one.

On July 4, 2025, the water we love came up through the floors of homes along the Guadalupe and took people with it. Camp Mystic. Families asleep in the low ground. Somewhere, this summer, a child heard thunder wand felt the old excitement turn into something else. A body that has learned rain can kill is doing exactly what a body is supposed to do, paying attention. The problem was never the fear. The problem is what caused it, and what we're offering instead of an answer.

Roughly 90 percent of the planet's cooling happens through water — evaporation, transpiration, the endless small phase-changes of a system moving heat off itself the way it always has. Water is not the threat in that sentence. Water doing what water has always done, in a landscape built to receive it, cools us. Water doing what water has always done, in a landscape we paved and channelized and stripped of anything that could slow it down, drowns us. The flood is not water's betrayal. It's the bill for a century of decisions about where water was and wasn't allowed to go.

I wrote an earlier draft of this and used the word violent to describe how we've treated water — the concrete ditches, the straightened channels, the reservoirs that hold it wrong. An editing tool suggested harsh instead, gentler, and I took the suggestion. I want to take it back. We are, culturally, extremely practiced at softening the language around our treatment of water and land the same way we are teaching children to flinch at the sky.

A child's fear of rain will not be cured by reassurance. It will be cured by a landscape that has earned back the right to be trusted — soil with enough organic matter to drink the storm instead of shedding it, a creek allowed to spread into the ground beside it instead of racing straight for the next bayou, prairie doing the underground work it did for ten thousand years before we decided grass should be short and water should be somewhere else. Not sandbags. Not another warning system.

I want my children's children to smell it coming, raise their faces to the sky, and run outside when it starts. I want that instinct to be correct again.

Re-greening a Dryland Watershed: usgs.gov/media/videos/re-greening-dryland-watershed

To Soar - Nick Finnegan Counseling Center piece, the drawing.

This is the drawing before the piece is a piece — hand and eye still deciding: water to wing to petal; a beak, a seed head, a cleft in a lily pad.

The edge of a feather blossoms and a blade of grass takes flight.

When I was asked to make a piece for the Nick Fennigan Counseling Center fall fundraiser, I said yes without hesitation. It’s an organization worth supporting — they counsel families affected by extreme weather, including many who lost family members in the flooding of July 4, 2025. Water and grief, water and generations, is ground I’ve been standing on for a while now. Their work matters to me on more levels than one.

So I don’t want this piece to merely decorate a hallway. I want it to hold what happens in that room — someone arriving low, in the mess of it, and finding, slowly, that they can rise. I want it to be a resource, an inspiration — something that lifts spirits the way lilies rise out of the mud every morning, the way sandhill cranes, once nearly gone themselves, still rise out of the wetlands and don’t look back at what they’re leaving.

So I drew a wetland, and I drew it the way I think about first responders — which is to say, not as uniforms and sirens, but as what shows up first when a system has been wounded and starts, quietly, insisting on repair. A weed pushing through cracked asphalt is a first responder. So is a bird.

Sandhill cranes are in this piece because their comeback is one of the real ones — a species that was down to a scattering of breeding pairs, that could have gone the way of so many others, and instead climbed back. Slowly. Generation by generation, without hurry, without announcement. That feels true to what happens in a counseling room too.

The birds are drawn mid-lift — wings still tangled in the reeds and in each other, not yet clear of the water. That’s the moment I wanted: not before the flight and not after it, but the part where you’re releasing the wetland and it is letting go too. I think that’s closer to what the center’s clients are actually doing than any image of a bird already high and settled in a clean sky would be.

And underneath all of it, water lilies — because they close every night and go back down into the dark water, and every morning they open again and rise, with the sun, the going-under makes them more beautiful. They don’t rise despite the muck. The muck is where the roots are. Where they seed. Even their blooms won’t hold still — female one day, male the next, never settling into the one story a flower is supposed to tell. I wanted that in the piece without saying it out loud.

The final work will be monotone — torn paper and dripping in whites lightly tinted, the same process I used for Unfolding Hope, scaled to eight feet by eight feet. But it starts here, in pencil, working out where every petal that becomes a feather needs to sit before any color touches the paper.

More as it develops.

The Scanning Eye

Tuesday, counselors from the Nick Fennigan Counseling Center came to my studio to talk about the piece I’m making for their auction. One of them mentioned, almost in passing, that she treats trauma with EMDR — Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing. I knew its basic shape: the eyes move back and forth, left to right, while the patient holds a difficult memory in mind, and something about that motion helps the nervous system file it away as past instead of present. She’s spent years training to do this skillfully, with people in real pain. It works.

I went home. I walked through the gate, and before I’d registered doing it, my eyes were already moving across the pond — left, right — searching for a glimpse of the bullfrogs, hoping to catch one, checking the reeds for the night heron the lilies pads for the frogs. I do this in my gardens too, every time, without deciding to: scanning for new growth, for bees and butterflies, for whatever is crawling, climbing, or slithering through on its way somewhere else. I have never called it a technique. It is instinct — there was a day it was survival. Maybe it still is. I learned it from the pond, and the garden taught it to me again. I am sure I did it in the desert.

the pond.

Researchers looking for a mechanism behind EMDR’s eye movements identified the orienting response. In the 1990s, MacCulloch and Feldman proposed a Pavlovian-Darwinian account of it: an organism that couldn’t orient toward threat and opportunity in its environment didn’t survive to reproduce. The lateral, searching sweep of the eyes across living terrain is old behavioral software — older than language, older than any office a person might sit in to heal.

scanning for bullfrogs i spied the tiniest delightful being.

What the therapist is doing, I think, is more than administering a technique. She’s giving a nervous system access to a mode of perception it evolved for and hasn’t had steady work for in a long time — the same mode the pond and the garden still gift me. Before we managed our landscapes, every walk outside was scanning: where is danger, where is food, what just moved. Vigilance and wonder ran on the same current. The heron was a threat-check and a gift in the same glance.

Then came glass, mowed lawns, screens, art hung in a fixed row at eye height — interiors that ask nothing of the eye because nothing there can hurt or feed you. The old sweep didn’t disappear. It just ran out of terrain to practice on.

So maybe what the therapist restores in the room, the garden restores outside it. Not competing methods — the same reflex, given two different kinds of ground to work on. The bees and the bullfrogs aren’t incidental to what happens to me out there. They’re the terrain that makes the scanning necessary again.

The piece I’m making for the center’s auction will ask something similar of whoever stands in front of it. The lower part holds a strong side-to-side movement — the eye has to work there, back and forth, before anything resolves. Then the movement lifts up out of that messiness and soars. I built that in on purpose. I keep making the eye do the one thing it’s always known how to do.

Above is an image of the piece in progress for the auction. The pencil drawing is too light to see. I have printed the image and drawn over the marker lines to sit with the composition. I may erase the whole thing later.

More on this piece later.

I don’t have a tidy close for this one. Just this: I’m going to keep scanning the pond and the garden. And I’m aware how much luck is folded into having either — that for so many people, the only terrain left to scan is a room with a chair, and a hand moving side to side, because no pond or garden is theirs to practice on.

Further reading: The Role of Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) Therapy in Medicine.

GLUTAMATE

say in Mandarin: do you have any bullfrogs for sale.

Every year they ask what I want for my birthday. It's July, always the same request, because summer is when the pond is at her best — the focal point of our lives and our home. We don't have a backyard. We have a cement pond on a patio, and everything else arranges itself around her.

Every year I ask for bullfrog tadpoles. And every year they're harder to find. When my kids were children, they caught them themselves — waded in, cupped their hands, brought me the future chorus. Now they have their own lives, their own children, and the time to find and catch a tadpole is a luxury for them.

This year my son Griffin called a Chinese grocery store. He asked, in English, if they had bullfrogs for sale. They spoke Mandarin, didn't understand him, and hung up. He called back. They hung up again. He tried a third time, same result.

Finally he asked ChatGPT to help. What it gave him back wasn't Mandarin — it was the instruction “say in Mandarin: do you have any bullfrogs for sale.” We both burst out laughing. Then his dog lost its footing and fell in the pond. He called the store again and held his phone up to mine so it could speak the instructions instead of the actual words — still not an answer. So he asked ChatGPT to actually teach him the words this time, not translate for him, but teach him — and he called back one more time and said it himself.

They had bullfrogs.

I love how determined he was. How resourceful. Somewhere in a birthday request I've made every year for over a decade, my son ended up learning four words of Mandarin because he wanted this particular quiet nugget of wildlife to keep existing in our lives.

Four bullfrogs came home. Two nights later, a yellow-crowned night heron came to see about them.

The minute I saw him, I was torn. I wanted to protect these frogs — not only for what they give back to the small ecosystem of our patio, but for everything they hold: twenty-two of them in 2009, my children young enough to still be catching tadpoles, one who lived to be nine inches long and outlasted everything else that year, silence during Covid, and now, this — three hung-up phone calls and a few words of borrowed Mandarin, so that I could have this chorus for my 69th birthday.

And I love herons too. For years I shooed themselves off the pond without a second thought. Then one year — 2023, I think — the creatures of the cool dark night started coming at midday, in the worst of the heat, standing in the water, gular fluttering, that fast open-mouthed panting birds do when they're desperate to cool down. From then on I tried to give them space in the heat of the day. But that day, I didn't.

So the poem that follows isn't really about the heron. It's about me, standing in my own garden, torn between two things I love, and having to admit that “protecting” one of them meant treating the other as a threat.

I wrote it in his voice because he needs to be heard. All summer I've been writing in the voice of the beings I love — the frog, the passion vine, the dragonfly, the prairie, and now the heron. It's how I advocate. It's how I try to spur collective action: not by telling you what I think a heron deserves, but by letting him tell you himself.

it is not beauty, exactly

the heron was my jiminy cricket-

and lessons turning 69.

The Pigeon Was Never the Point

I am renaming a ten-year-old project this month: The Peace Pigeon Project becomes Succession.

Nothing about the work itself is changing. The pieces stay exactly as they are — the bronze trumpeter, the cardboard-box pigeon, the toilet-paper-roll pigeon, the found sombrero I turned into wings and a body. What's changing is the frame around them, because the old frame was borrowed from someone else's symbolism, and it was never quite mine.

Here's the actual history. In fall 2016 I set myself a rule: one sculpture a week, a new material every time. I needed a subject stable enough to hold that discipline together, so I picked a bird — the German beak-crested trumpeter, a pigeon whose feathered feet let it balance without a pedestal. Later I learned this exact breed is the pigeon Picasso drew as his famous peace dove, a bird gifted to him by Matisse. In French and German, "pigeon" and "dove" are the same word. It's a good footnote. I kept the project named after it for ten years.

But "peace" was never the mechanism at work in that studio. What was actually happening, week after week, was disturbance and regrowth: I forced my hands through baling wire, then plaster, then root and branch, then copper tubing, then stone, and something different came out of me each time. I didn't have the vocabulary for that yet. I have it now, because the last several years of research into regenerative grazing gave it to me.

In grazing ecology, succession runs through the animal's whole body, not just the ground beneath it. A hoof breaks the soil crust; manure returns nitrogen and seeds a bloom of dung beetles and fly larvae; grazed grass regrows, shorter and denser. The flocks don’t wait for the new growth — they follow the bison directly, riding its back, working ticks and flies off its hide, then dropping to the dung pats for the insects breeding there. Cowbirds carried an older name for exactly this: buffalo birds, because the relationship was that specific, that physical. Not because the land made peace with them, but because a large grazing body is itself a habitat, and something disturbed it in a way that made more life possible. That is a more accurate description of 2016 than any dove ever was. I wasn't making peace with a pigeon. I was disrupting my own workflow on a weekly schedule and watching what came back.

There's a second thing the old title hid, and I want to name it. Every one of those birds is the same species, and no two look alike — cast in bronze, made of baling wire, built from a stranger's sombrero. That's not decoration. A population with more variation to draw on survives change better than one without it, whether that's a species or a whole landscape's worth of species, root depths, and insects. Diversity is what lets a system take a hit — drought, flood, heat — and come back afterward. My one bird wearing twenty different bodies makes that visible.

So: Succession. Same pieces, same materials, same bird in the title where it belongs now — as a footnote, not a frame.

I'm not scrubbing the old title from the record. If you search for The Peace Pigeon Project, you'll still find it, and I'll leave a note there pointing here. But going forward, this is what I call that year of work, and why.

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Liberty

Diverse Works asked a question last night and had the generosity to let it go through an entire meal: what does liberty mean, alone and together, as the country turns 250. Not an icebreaker. The point of the dinner.

I have three early memories that surfaced first.

I was fourteen, in a science classroom, when the school nurse ran her finger down every girl's spine to confirm the strap beneath her dress. Girls were not allowed to wear pants. Liberty, that decade, was a body inventory.

I was four when a president inverted the question: not what is owed to you, but what you return to the whole that holds you. I didn't understand the syntax. I understood the reversal. It settled into me less than three years before an assassin's bullet made it permanent.

I was young when Texas Western won the national championship with an all-Black starting five, Don Haskins' answer to a question the sport hadn't agreed to ask yet. My dad took me to the airport to watch the team land. I think I felt the courage it took — theirs, and his — I just didn't know to name it yet.

Sixty years later the more I learn about how nature works, the more I ask it. Or it asks me.

We have inherited liberty as a story about separation — the individual freed from the collective, the body freed from surveillance, the nation freed from the crown. But separation is not what any living system optimizes for. A legume does not liberate nitrogen from soil. It fixes it, converts it, gives it back to ground that was starving for exactly that compound. Mycorrhizae do not free the tree from the forest floor. They bind root to fungus to root more precisely, so carbon and water move toward whoever is depleted. Nothing in a functioning system is freed from relationship. It is bound into one, more accurately, so the whole can keep metabolizing.

For some, liberty was never separation to defend — it was the nitrogen never fixed, the relation never permitted, arriving two centuries late and still arriving.

Symptoms are rarely where the story starts. They are usually its most recent sentence — a system telling us relationship has already been lost, and asking to be returned to it.

Liberty, seen this way, was never the absence of a hand on the back. It was always the right to enter relationship well — and the responsibility to keep it in balance once you're in it.

Two hundred fifty years in: what are you returning to the systems that made you free enough to ask the question?

Grateful to Diverse Works for asking it, and to every person at that table for how they held it.

UNFOLDING HOPE - the poem

The poem came first.

Before the panels, before the torn paper and watercolor and garden sprayer — there was the story of the cranes, and I needed to find the shape of it in words. What emerged was Unfolding Hope, written in four sections that map directly to the four panels of the quadriptych.

When I began writing the poem into the surface of the work in pastel, the words changed. They became part of the landscape — layered, recolored, some legible up close, some dissolving into marks from a distance. What you read here is the full text, the version that lives underneath the image.

The four sections move through the whole arc: from what was nearly lost, through the people who refused to accept that loss, to what it means to witness recovery, to what recovery asks of us now.

This is my fourth version of Unfolding Hope, the poem. In writing it I discovered I was not looking for my own voice — I was listening for the voice of the natural world. This poem belongs to the estuary, the grasslands.

Unfolding Hope is part of my solo show, made possible through the Houston Endowment Jones Artist Awards Program 2026. Presented in partnership with Weingarten Art Group.

Can Art Cool Thought?Reimagining the Data Center as Common Wealth

Seduction

I considered going barefoot at the opening of my art exhibition, 600 square feet of lawn covering the gallery. The pull of cool grass between my toes. Green. Uniform. Lush. Seduced, I almost took my shoes off. Then I remembered — what it takes to grow a monoculture that is visually perfect. The chemicals. The water. The living system erased so that one species could impersonate perfection. I kept my shoes on. I installed that sod as a social sculpture — to reshape society by exposing exactly what the lawn costs. I knew. And for a second it almost didn’t matter. Millions of Americans are seduced the same way. This essay is about data centers, bison, and what happens when you stop being seduced and start seeing in systems.

Vertigo

Sodding the entire gallery was initially about the lawn — the water it wastes, the emissions from gas equipment, the monoculture. The way it moves water across the surface instead of returning it to the ground. The same reasons I have been making social sculptures about the lawn since I started Symbiosis in 2020. In 2026 the water conversation is about data centers. The anger is immediate and loud. That anger made me curious. How does lawn water use actually compare to data center water use? Lawns: 2 trillion gallons a year. Data centers: 17.5 billion. The American dream — the lawn — uses 100 times more water than our newest industrial villain. These numbers. Vertigo. I needed time to think them through. I wrote my way back to solid ground, through undermine and On Sod.

And in writing I kept coming back to China Miéville’s novel The City and The City, that inspired our title, the circle & the circle. Two worlds occupying the same space, both conditioned to not see the other. We have been trained to see the lawn as desirable and technology as destructive. That conditioning is so deep, so woven into the American culture, that it is almost impossible to dodge. It seduced me at my own opening.That is how powerful our connection to lawn is. Both conditionings are wrong. And the cost is life. I had been asking myself how do we turn this around. And then I remembered what I do in my studio when a piece isn’t working. I turn it upside down. A new orientation reveals what you couldn’t see before. Then during the Wildlife is Technology talk, our moderator Weston asked the architect on the panel how she saw architecture functioning in landscape. I asked myself — what does it look like for a data center to mimic a bison. What if the data center, surrounded not by lawn or asphalt but by living ecosystem, can return everything it takes? That is when I saw it — data centers are wildlife. Consuming and returning. Borrowing instead of depleting. The bison building the ecosystem.

Before the vision, the math. Because without the math, the vision is just a dream.

Before the vision, the math. Because without the math, the vision is just a dream.

The Numbers

Pick any county with a data center. Newton County Georgia is spending $250 million on water infrastructure to keep up with one. Community water rates are up 33%. Tax revenue from Meta is $30 million a year — meaning the community spends 8 years of tax revenue just to break even on the water bill. These numbers are public record. Newton County serves as a model. The directional math holds — but site-specific results would vary based on soil composition, rainfall, and land condition.

The Fix

The Water

With 1,000 acres of living ecosystem, the data center’s daily draw of 500,000 gallons could be offset forty times over — 20 million gallons regenerated daily. The $250 million infrastructure bill disappears. The 33% rate hike disappears. The regional water table begins recovering.

Beyond the Property Line

But the water doesn’t stop at the property line. 20 million gallons a day would be a regional asset. Water in drought-prone regions is valued at over $1,000 per acre-foot. Neighboring municipalities with depleted aquifers. Agricultural communities fighting drought. A water banking system that stores surplus in wet seasons for dry ones. At 20 million gallons a day — roughly 22,000 acre-feet per year — the living landscape has a potential market value of $22 million per year. The data center would stop being a water consumer. It would become a water utility.

Not Just Water

Add waste heat recovery generating 5% of the facility’s power back as electricity. Add carbon sequestration generating carbon credits. Add a community that wants you there instead of fighting you in court.

Without: a $250 million liability, a depleted aquifer, and 70% of Americans opposed.

With: 20 million gallons regenerated daily, recovered electricity, carbon credits, and a community that needs what you are producing.

That is not idealism. That is a better business model.

The Longer It Runs

And these numbers are based on just 1% organic matter — the starting point. With regenerative grazing, soil organic matter builds from 1% to 15% in 15 years. Water infiltration goes from less than half an inch per hour to over ten inches per hour. The longer the system runs, the more water it holds. The data center campus improves with age.

Every other infrastructure investment depreciates. This one appreciates.

Built-In Accountability

And unlike a tax abatement or a community promise, the living landscape is not a commitment that can be restated in the next quarter. It is the infrastructure. The data center’s own water supply depends on the health of the living system surrounding it. You cannot remove the prairie without removing the water source. The living landscape is the accountability mechanism. It is structural, not regulatory. The data center cannot cheat it without destroying itself.

Seeing in Systems

I am a regenerative artist. A problem solver. I see connections others miss. I call it seeing in systems — the natural world’s way of connecting everything to everything so that life regenerates. Not sustains. Sustains is not enough. Regenerates. What follows is a vision, not a blueprint. The problems can be worked out as the details are drawn.

Data Centers Are Wildlife

The average data center campus is 224 acres of turf, parking, and perimeter fencing. The same lawn that seduced me at my own opening. I am imagining something different.

The Arrival

I imagine driving toward it. A winding road — no grid, no right angles, no fences. Landscape bridges wide enough that animals don’t know they are crossing a road — wide enough that a predator has no advantage, wide enough that the prairie feels continuous. Clusters of homes, each one different. Porches and swings facing outward. No garage doors swallowing the front. Cul-de-sacs designed for people who want to walk to work. Who live inside a nature preserve. Who grow their own food because they have time. Time the data center gives them back. Then rolling swells to slow the water. Wetlands deepening into ponds and protecting estuaries. Snowy egrets, roseate spoonbills, great blue herons, and sandhill cranes fill the terrain. The songs of birds reaching you before the building does. A woodland buffer — trees that break the sound and the heat, filter the light, cool the air between the living and the work. You arrive at a data center the way you arrive at a nature preserve. Because it is that first.

The Building

The building announces nothing. A metal structure built into the hill, its footprint small, its face disappearing into the slope. Below the ground line — a glass wall. You can see the roots growing down. Eight feet. Twelve feet. Fourteen feet. They are not avoiding the building. They are listening to it. Plant roots navigate by sound — drawn toward the vibration of water moving through pipes. The roots and the cooling system in conversation underground. The building is designed to hold that conversation without losing it.

Above — a living wall. Greenery billowing from every level, every terrace. On the roof — solar panels and living plants working together. The plants cool the panels. The panels power the building. The building has bones of recycled waste and skin of life. Packed between the metal structure and the earth — recycled plastic, discarded clothing, the waste the civilization that built this place did not know what to do with. It insulates. It silences.

You find a staircase going down into the ground. That is all. A door. The most powerful computing infrastructure on the planet, and it offers you a staircase and a door. Inside — rows of machines doing the work of the world in carefully controlled darkness. Through pipes in the walls — water. Not blue water drawn from the aquifer. Green water. Captured from the living roof above, condensed from the metal skin where warm server air meets cool hillside, returned through the closed loop that never lets it leave. Always circulating. Always returning. When it exits it moves through the land first. The prairie drinks. The roots absorb. What remains meanders toward the wetlands and the ponds. The aquifer recharges below. At the larger scale — the watershed, the atmosphere — moving the way water has always moved. Not always here. Not always when we need it. But that is not the water’s failure. That is ours. A century of lawns, asphalt, and industrial monocultures taught water to leave and never come back to the place it fell. This building will do the opposite.

The land is the monument. The building simply serves it. The people who tend it go in quickly, do what is needed, and return to the green.

The land is the monument. The building simply serves it.

The Land

Back in the light. Around the building a thick forest of green — another layer of cooling, another layer of silence. Then the land opens. Rolling prairie and ponds. A winding road. Wildlife doing what they have always done — eating plants, building soil, running the system that runs everything else.

Wild turkeys roosting in the trees. Vultures and hawks kettling in the sky. Small herds of native goats, sheep, deer, bison, and cows — grazing, dunging, building the soil the way they built the prairie for ten thousand years. Rabbits. Fox. Turtles moving between pond and prairie. Armadillos turning soil. Opossums grooming away ticks by the thousands. The whole system running itself.

And beavers. Keystone engineers — building dams, slowing water, recharging the aquifer. Areas with beavers retain nine times more water during drought. The pond does not need managing. It manages itself.

The hum of computers gives way to the hum of hummingbirds. Songbirds everywhere.

Pollinators working the prairie — bees, butterflies, moths — carrying the future from flower to flower.

People kayaking through the wetlands. Meditating. Fishing. Jogging. Gardening. Tending the food forest. Checking on the wildlife. Living at the pace of the land.

These people have time for this. Not despite the data center. Because of it. The AI in the building underground gave it back to them.

The machines think so the people can be present.

The machines think so the people can be present.

Common Wealth

The land gives. The data center gives. The community gives. They trade water for power. The trade is richer than that. The community gets free electricity, restored land, public access, public food gardens, a pond, wetlands that buffer their homes from floods, cooler air, hummingbirds back in their gardens. The data center gets water, land, and a community of people who tend the system because their lives depend on it. Not their livelihoods. Their lives. People need to tend land the way they need to breathe. Connection to the living world is not an amenity. It is survival. This is not a corporate deal. This is common wealth.

This is not a corporate deal. This is common wealth.

Location

Location matters. The places where water is most scarce and heat most punishing need this first. This is not a solution for the few. In cold climates the ambient temperature does the cooling work. The insulation of recycled waste keeps the building warm. No extra energy needed. With the right design every community should want one. Not tolerate one. Want one. A data center that turns 1,000 acres of lawn and asphalt into a living ecosystem. Carbon sequestered. Water returned. Life restored. That is not an industrial imposition. That is common wealth arriving in your community.

The Math

Art brings big problems down to human scale — the scale where we stop feeling helpless and start feeling responsible. I started where I was, in an art gallery. How much water could 600 square feet of sod hold by adding just 1% more organic matter — the living and the decaying, roots and microbes and decomposed leaves and bison dung — the dark layered material that builds from the top down and holds water like a sponge? 600 square feet is about 1/72nd of an acre. 20,000 gallons divided by 72 equals roughly 277 gallons. Three days of water for one person. From dead monoculture. One percent. Then I jumped from the gallery to the data center. How many acres would a data center need to regenerate its daily draw of 500,000 gallons? Twenty five acres. The daily water supply of 1,400 people. This is not a direct exchange. The 25 acres does not replace what the data center uses today. Like the bison whose dung does not replace the grass it ate — it starts the process. The microbes build the soil. The soil holds the water. The aquifer slowly refills. Not replacement. Regeneration.

The Bison

The bison at Roam Ranch in the Texas Hill Country showed me the way. Technology is a human creation. Humans are part of nature. Technology can fit into natural systems with knowledge and intent. The bison does not waste. It tramples and eats the grass. It generates heat. It produces dung. The dung delivers microbes that break down the trampled grass. The decay builds the soil. The soil grows more grass. Nothing is lost. Everything cycles. Heat and water are energy. I asked AI — why are we cooling the heat the data center generates? In seconds I learned that researchers at Rice University are already developing systems that combine data center waste heat with rooftop solar to generate clean electricity — recovering up to 80% more electricity from the same waste heat. Stockholm has integrated over 20 data centers into its municipal heating network, warming 30,000 apartments. During the Paris Olympics, the Equinix data center heated the Olympic Aquatic Centre — and transferred that heat free of charge for 15 years. The heat was never waste. Regenerative farmers know this. Regenerative ranchers know this. Now the data center can know it too.

The Cost

The knowledge exists. The technology exists. The math works. So what is stopping it?

The risk of leading change. The cost of being wrong. The cost of sticking out. The cost of trying and failing. Our social and political systems are designed to protect existing beliefs. Changing your mind in public is dangerous. The lawn is beautiful. The data center is dangerous. Those conditionings hold at every dinner party because breaking them costs something real — fitting in. It makes you seem argumentative. It happened to me last night.

AI has no ego invested in being right. Does not need to be reelected or get invited to the neighborhood coffee. It responds to new information the way a living system responds to rain. Immediately. Without embarrassment. Without political cost. In that way AI is more like a living system than our society is.

The remedy grows where the wound is. The same 40 million acres causing the problem may be the solution to it. Data centers are wildlife.

Not a drain. A gift. Of water. Of time. Of life.

Can art cool thought? It cooled mine.